SCANNER vs The Future

I wonder what the future holds for you.

I've been thinking what to write about next, it's been quite difficult because I'm running out of things to talk about. However, I am doing lots more what I usually do which will lead to a bright future for me. I've come a long way from being a weird little kid to a weird big adult. So I'm going to make a few predictions what my future holds.

Best End
My end-goal is to get a PhD. I want to be the smartest motherfucker in Media and Communication, a more academic version of the Jimquisition. To achieve this I will need to be saving and making money to fund my academic tuition. So I thought 'Why not start from the bottom?', so right now I'm doing a Teacher's Assistant course for Primary school kids. The plan is to get confidence in the classroom and aim for a PGCE so I can become a fully fledged teacher. When I get that and rake in dough, I could then pay my student debts off and then aim for a Masters and a PhD and then BAM! I'll be a uni tutor.

Good End
Just realized with these headings it sounds like I'm laying down a skeleton for a VN (Raccoon, if you're reading this, please make a SCANNER route for your VN for christmas). But here is where I'd like to settle down if the teaching thing doesn't pan out. I've been working retail on and off for a few years, and I loved working in Smyth's Toystore. What I would like to do is to work for Game or Cex doing retail shit. Then still get my Masters and PhD because I like studying.

Bad End
Now this is the worst case scenario. Say if I don't get a job in retail, and end up doing nothing with my life; I'll just end up smoking weed again. And with that comes a risk of relapse with psychosis. So I'll get sent back to hospital and start off at square 1 again.


Last thoughts
With the support I have now, I'm actually being set up to succeed whatever I choose. I no longer feel anxious or depressed, I think that the future is looking pretty bright. One day I will move out from supported living and re-enter the world of work, which will help fight against the void I was feeling. I don't think I feel the void now because I'm doing a lot of things to keep me busy.

Volunteering for a Youth Club on Thursdays, doing classes on Teaching Assisting on Mondays, doing a course on self confidence and self esteem on Tuesdays, and I got a career's advisory team that I meet up with that discusses job choices and the like.

I think ever since I was locked up in hospital, my life has changed for the better, slowly but surely I'm becoming more successful in my endeavours. And if you're reading this, Raccoon, I want to share this success with you, I hope you get to move in here with me and sort each other out. You're the one that keeps me writing, you keep me motivated and for that, I want to motivate you too. Here's to the future!